Little Bears Are Off: 2015

Here's me thinking I've got nothing new to write about, to share with you (myself).

It's not like Christmas didn't happen, or New Years didn't happen- they did- they flew by in the blink of an eye, and I actually really enjoyed myself.

In fact Ben and I also celebrated our 4 year anniversary too. With a trip to Winterwonderland- just so I can say we've started a tradition!

I haven't blogged in a while- not that I'm even sure anyone reads this. But I had great ideas about this. I would be blogging on a weekly- fortnightly basis. Posting about where we just visited, and what we just saw- something to read through and remind myself of what we did where.

But, and not sadly, London for us hasn't worked out how I would have thought it would. I thought we would have travelled somewhere be it in the UK or internationally at least once every 8 weeks.

Truth of it is I hardly leave East London at all. I live in E1, I work in EC4 and I spend all my spare hours between the two.

London has been so fun. We have such good friends who seem more like family. We are out every weekend, eating out, going to pubs, partying at our own place, and at friend’s places. Were always at Bricklane Market on Sundays filling up on the best food. We have a lot of fun.

Christmas was amazing, we went to a pub for a yummy but totally ridiculously priced meal. I drank nothing but Prosecco (and paid for it the next day!) and partied at a friends until the wee hours. Something Christmas at home is never like because it’s all so family heavy (something I love and miss) it was kind of refreshing, and we knew it was the last orphans Christmas we would have.

New Years was the one of the first times I hadn’t had anything planned so far in advance, and looked forward to in months. We booked a table at Pub in the Park in London Fields and drank there, with great friends. There were fireworks at midnight- not that I saw them with all my New Years kissing! Ha.

Then we went to a friend’s place and dances the night away. It’s always the unplanned nights that are the absolute best!

Everything we do now is that last time we ‘have this’ or ‘do this’ in London as home-time is looming. I am doing the unimaginable, leaving London after getting a visa allowing me to stay. I think everyone who wants to stay but can’t would hate me after reading this.

Unfortunately for me, unfortunately for Ben, and unfortunately for our travelling plans the time has come for us to leave. Ben is 30 soon, and I am 27 not long after, and being here is treading water, were not getting any closer to our 5 year goals and it’s something I struggle with daily.

I know if we move home and hate it we have the option to move back and that’s nice. But London is so expensive, and so much like Neverland and I just don’t think I can continue to burn the candles at both ends.

My goal now is to get home, get a career that affords me to come back and see the place we’ve loved so dearly for the last 2 and a bit years. I want us to come back and see the places we missed seeing- and boy is that list long!

I want to be ticking off life goals, and getting the travel goals ticked off as well. God knows London won’t allow both.

We will always have London, we will always be back- that I know it!